Friday, July 8, 2011

Boys, close your eyes.

I'm about to get all girlie on here.  And I know how boys cringe when girls get all girlie.  And while I only think that there may be all two of you men (not counting my husband) that read may just want to click off of this entry now.

Warning you.

Here's your chance....

Okay, if you are still reading then you deserve to get all "ewwwww, she's talking about periods and stuff!".

So I had my daughter almost 19 months ago.  To get pregnant, we did several rounds of Clomid and finally got to the point of the doc saying that it was against her better judgement to continue on Clomid.  We had done 6 months at the highest "recommended" dosing and got nothing.

We stopped.  Decided that in-vitro wasn't an option (financially---and our insurance didn't cover it) and we would just be happy doing foster care and looking into adoption in the future.  We were okay with this.

The next month, I was pregnant.  Go figure.

I have never had a "regular" period or cycle. Ever.  Which is why it was so hard for me to get pregnant in the first place.

But now, in the 19 months post-pregnancy, I've not had one single period. 

I had the Mirena put in a couple of months post baby and I always thought it was a side effect or something.  But my friends who also have the Mirena aren't having this problem.  I think that my body is just back into the cycle of not having a cycle.  While I really don't mind not having to deal with it every month, I know that it's not healthy.

And lately I've been having some pretty serious pain issues.  I feel like my ovary is about to rupture and it literally drops me to my knees.  I have dealt with ruptured cysts before and those freakin' hurt.  I'm wondering if that's what's happening again. 

I loved my gyno back in southern IL.  Loved, loved, loved her.  The thought of having to find a new one up here, just doesn't interest me at all.  I know that I won't like anyone as much as I did her.  I know that I won't trust anyone as much as I do her.  And I have even considered commuting the six hours just for an appointment with her. Nuts, I know.

So I took the leap of faith and went to google.  I called the first doctor that pulled up in the search for my area.  My appointment is July 21st.  Ugh.  I know that I need my yearly exam and I dread what they will say about my lack of period for the past 19 months.  My previous doctor "forced" a period every 6 months by use of medication.  She felt that it was necessary for my body to have one at least twice a year.  So for me to have let it go this far.....yikes.  I may get a stern look.  But I'll just give one right back. 

I just hope that nothing is seriously wrong.  The pain that I've had is scary.  A little.

And while I don't think I see more children in my future.....having that option taken away rather than it being a personal choice, is not very good.

But we'll see.  I have a tendency to make a mountain out of a mole surely I'm worrying for nothing.  Right?


Heather said...

I have a friend who doesn't get periods either she just had a baby 8 months ago even though she was told she couldn't. She has polysistic ovaries. You should have your doctor check to see if you have this. She hurts when she ovulates and is in pain a lot. As women when we don't feel right we should always trust our bodies. I don't think you are making a mountain out of a mole hill. I think your body is saying something isn't right. For months i would get tingling in my arms and legs and ignored it and blamed it on stress. Months later I was diagnosed with Multiple sclerosis. We can't ignore when our bodies are telling us something.

Brandi said...

I had mirena and hadn't had one for a year (until I had it taken out). I just had it put in again. Also, breastfeeding could have had something to do with it in the beginning too.

Raegan is my world said...

Your breast feeding could account for the first year after having Kinley. I know I didn't have one for the first 11 months after having Raegan due to breast breast feeding but unfortunately it she has come back. I hope you find out what is going on.

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