I know that she loves me more than her school or her teachers or her friends, but I can't provide the things that her friendships can. I'm fooling myself if I even pretend that I can. But I'm keeping myself sane by realizing that I am offering her so much more than what school ever can. And come fall, she will be back in a new school with new friends and a mommy two rooms over.
I am getting the best of both worlds? Right? Working but still "with" her (as in, same building?).
I think that more than anything, I am trying to justify in my head that preschool teaching, or this job in particular, is okay. It's okay to have this job even though I have a BA degree in elementary and even though I have acquired 50K in college debt and am not putting it to use. It's okay to take a 20K yearly pay cut.
It's not okay, but it's necessary.
Let's face it, teaching jobs are like a needle in a haystack. Good luck finding one! Maybe in a year or two, things will change, but until then. I am doing what needs to be done.
I have become absolutely obsessed with budgeting since having time off. I think I spend at least 2-3 hours each day going over the spreadsheet and our check book to see where I can pinch another penny. But, it's working! I have (on paper) put aside almost 2500 for savings this month! Obviously, that's from the lack of day care and two hours of commuting each day...but that's a huge gain for one month! I am pretty proud.
Since my free days are down to the last two, I am planning to spend the rest of today reading the book that everyone and their mother has been talking about, Fifty Shades of Grey. I know, I know, it's smut. Whatever. It will just continue my romance hangover from yesterday, right?!
It's one of the many that are on my summer reading list, and if I know me, I won't even get through one. But good intentions are the best kind. And I've got tons of those! :)