They promise (as if I trust their promises anymore) that I will be placed and that it just may be that I have to start later than all of the other student teachers.
I talked to the placement lady today at our SmartBoard training and she told me that she is expecting to hear from a principal today via email and if that didn't work out that she had another district in mind. I asked her if that other district was a sure thing (despite it being an hour away) and she said no. Soooo, ask me how much faith I have in that?!
And then to put icing on my freakin' cake, I found out that the government is reviewing our tax records and W2s to evaluate my financial aid for fall. So my funds are all tied up in whatever it is they are doing....the financial aid office said that I could go ahead and start my semester and hopefully we'll get this cleared up soon. And if we don't? I guess I'll have to pay out of pocket for the semester? Yeah, okie-dokey. Let me just go and pull that $4K off of my money tree in the back yard. No problem what-so-ever.
So thanks, my-former-favorite-ever university for making me feel like chopped liver. I honestly feel like every obstacle that could possibly come up is being thrown my way. It's like God doesn't want me to graduate.
I am learning the hard way that you just sometimes have to put it in His hands. And I am not very good at letting things go.... a bit of a control freak, you see. I have fallen on my knees and just prayed and prayed that I will get this placement (the one that she's supposed to hear about via email today). It is so close to R's work and an amazing district. The school is beautiful. I want it.
Not only is my placement making me ill.....but R and I have been arguing a lot again and while it is slightly different, we're still arguing again nonetheless. I mean, it's not as bad as it was--not even close--but I was so enjoying those few weeks of bliss with no arguments and no disagreements. And I know that it was all a "honeymoon" phase all over again...but I just wasn't ready for it to end. But I guess the good thing is that we are arguing better than we did before. Does that make sense? We aren't holding grudges for days/weeks/months. We get mad, we argue and we let it go. So I guess that's an improvement? There are many improvements.... few set backs.
And while I'm on the complain band-wagon:
Food makes me sick. It seems that since stopping the gym I have just felt lousy. And I know that working out and eating healthy makes you feel good but I have not done either for a few weeks and I am totally feeling it. Ugh. I just feel ick all the time and nothing sets well with my tum.
In happier news, I got my grade from my summer class...that I just finished last week. Talk about fast grading on her part!
And....one of my favorite songs is available for a free download on the K-Love website. So if you wanna hear it, check out the video below.
Then if you love it, as much as I do, go here and get a free download of it. And I think the free download is only good today. But I could be mistaken. I didn't read the fine print.
And....I am the winner, winner, chicken dinner! Yes, yes...I won this adorable apron from The Real Housewife of H2oVille! I can't wait to like.....make cupcakes in it! Or just look at it cause it's so freakin' cute. My husband has a thing for flirty aprons. He thinks they are sexy. So he was equally excited about this give-away!
And finally, my last "reason to smile" today....The Bachelor Pad starts tonight. I love reality smut TV and can not wait to see Vienna (I so don't like that girl) and what's his name duke it out Ooooh, and Vienna is now dating the "guard and protect your heart" dude! The drama....oh, the drama! I may have to tweet this one out tonight!
Okay peeps, I am going to treat myself to a movie for the short remainder of K's nap. I deserve it after all of this stress today. If you are the praying kind, pray for me. I need this student teaching placement. I need the relief from stress.